panda's lala land

sometimes i thought of giving up of what i have now. and get a new things to start with. the problem is, i dont know when to let go. everytime i think it’s a good time to give up and let go, there’s always something stop me of doing so. and the fear haunts again. what if i make the wrong decision, what if the one i choose to let go is actually the best one for me, what if the new thing is not as good as it seems to be now later on, and so on and so on. and it makes me really stop. i dont take any decision, i dont let go and i dont take the new thing as well. 

but in one point, the feeling to let go is just burst out that i couldnt hold it down. comes back to old history of thinkin, it will stop after a while. even after a serious aching in my heart and all. i still cant make the decision. i know it’s only make my life even more complicated than it’s already is now but i cant help it.

the hardest part to let go is finding the correct time to do it. coz it seems that there’s no good time for it. never. why?coz when we let go, we hurt other’s feeling and ours. and in the book of hurting, there will never be a direction on when is the good time to do so. there’s no such thing, thus there will never be a proper time for it. no matter when or how we do it, it will always leave pain and scar. 

ahh see, im confused again. and i drop my decision to take decision again. 

and here i am, stuck in where i should choose yet i cannot, not just yet.

*sigh*

.nitey everyone.vee out.